The hand flops limp in an abandoned sprawl
As the mother shifts the baby to its bed
A brief moment of wakefulness and it seeks around
And touches the soft fabric of mom’s shirt
Clutching that precious bit of mom
Reassured, falls limp again
As only one with a full stomach and dry bottom can
When he has spent his waking moments striving to be his best
An enterprising baby is now a satisfied baby
And heads off into whatever baby dream worlds exist
Just warms my heart to see,
Two eyes met, attraction sparked.
Sexy, confident, secure
Two hearts met intention formed
Invincible together
Two lives merged, married
Embraced and celebrated
Differences arose, got resolved…. or not
Experience grew
A small line on a stick changed colour
Eagerness stirred
The new life coming up became more and more real
Plans began – would they be?
The child was born
The heart burst wide open
The child continued to be
starry dreams stood on stake
Choices swayed in the wind, uncertainties trembled on melting edges
would my baby pay the price of this unthinking ignorance?
and now…..
The secure heart has this gaping hole of vulnerability and glorious fragility marches forward with purpose.
What you see is what you get
I live with innocence.
Scary innocence like I never thought possible
Courage to be defenceless in the unknown
And face and meet whatever comes along
Till I want to hide him away to keep him safe
One little guy who smiles, cries, grunts, stares
And what you see is what you get
No camouflage, no subterfuge, no pretences, no protection
Can I bear it?
Can I have the courage to keep looking into this mirror day after day?
Can I rediscover myself to meet that honesty?
My life throws up difficulties of simplicity
My self expands to encompass everything and fails
Yet I keep living each moment to my capacity
There is one to whom I am all he knows as okay
Where I have the power to define an entire world
I try that what he gets is what he sees in me.